So I'm layin' in bed and my lower left back is botherin' the hell outta me.. Can't get comfy when all I wanna do is go to sleep. Feels like there's metal bands around my middle constricting me, like a corset would feel I guess. SUCKS lemme tellya. No pills take care of the feelin' trust me I've tried.

So I signed for the house today. All I'm waitin' for is letters from the "folks who give me money" every month for the lender. For some reason they have to say "I get money" but not "how much". I dunno. Anyway, as soon as those arrive and thus get handed to the lender, set the 2 to 3 week clock and as soon as the loan clears (in 2 to 3 weeks) I get the keys. Then I get to figure out how to move all my heavy bullshit for the lowest price, which I find a bit annoying as before the accident I could do it all myself, but after the OWCP bastards will pay to move me once and only once, and I'm savin' that one.
So that's one of the "no we'll not help you" rules that kinda sucks.

So anyway my back is really buggin' the hell outta me right now and all I wanna do is go to sleep (really tired) but I can't coz my back hurts and I can't get comfy. Imagine trying to sleep in a creek-bed. (firefighters of the world shuddup, we all know you've done it already. You can sleep anywhere if tired enuf) Anyway, for the rest of you, find a nice creek-bed and lie down in it with a great big boulder pokin' you in the left side. Try to sleep with it jammed into your ribs. Now a firefighter would ball up with the boulder, hugging it or somesuch. You just get to have it poke you in the ribs. That's what it's like to be me right now and no ammount of trying to hug the damn thing's workin'.igh, what a bunch of crap.
Goes back to the feelings of last nite- If my whole life's to be like this, what's the point of it all? To have a painfull life? Oh yeah, that's gonna be great, Thanks. I often wonder what's the point of living with the pain... Hopefully I'll get to see some sort of something soon coz this is kinda crap.